SHE JERKED her head up in surprise. There was no one in sight. She frowned. She was sure she had heard someone enter the room just a moment ago. She sighed. Maybe it was just her imagination. After all, nobody could enter a room so small, and vanish in it, could they?
Could they? she asked herself again and shivered. She didn’t like the direction her thoughts were heading towards. So, she deliberately tried to think of something else. But it didn’t work. Her mind stubbornly kept returning to the source of the mysterious ‘intruder’.
Who could it be? Or what could it be? she wondered. She didn’t believe in ghosts and such baloney. But when you are all alone in a 10-storey building at 10 at night, your mind doesn’t function rationally.
She had been working overtime because her boss has decided that he needed some accursed documents urgently. She suddenly panicked. What if the building was haunted? “Nonsense!” she said to herself sternly. What if it was a murderer, a serial killer, or a lunatic, she thought. A scream formed in her throat, but she firmly kept herself in control. It was foolish to yell for help in an empty building with no one except the unwelcome interloper to hear you.
She began to sweat. What if this was her last hour? Or minute? What if the prowler jumped at her from behind, taking her by surprise? Her mind began to replay episodes of her life before her.
She saw in her mind the time when she was five, and had broken a priceless crystal vase accidentally, while playing with a ball. She had trembled with fright when she thought of her mother’s wrath. Sobbing, she had rushed to her mother, thrown herself in her arms and confessed her deed, after which, she stood trembling, waiting for her mother to lash out at her. But her mother had lifted her up gently, smilingly, brushed back her hair from her forehead and kissed it.
“Oh, honey,” she had whispered. “I’m so glad you didn’t get hurt when the vase broke. You are a million times more precious to me than the vase, you know.”
She remembered how relieved she had felt that she had been let off scott-free with no punishment.
Her mind provided her another flashback — a rather recent occurrence. Her six-year-old daughter had spilled some soda accidentally on her favourite tablecloth. The child had apologised profusely, but she was not the kind, loving mother she ought to have been. She had forgotten all about how it felt to be a small child, commit a mistake, and feel utterly scared and terrified. All that she had thought of was that it was her favourite tablecloth.
She had slapped her daughter hard and yelled at her for being so clumsy, and called her a slob. That was just this morning. Her daughter’s face — petrified and miserable, floated in front of her.
Now she regretted her harshness and thoughtlessness. Oh, how she regretted it! If only she had had more sense! What if that was the last time with her daughter? Was that the memory she wanted to leave behind with her? If only she had had the sense to realise that material possessions can never take the place of loved ones! If only she had the sense to understand that her daughter was more important to her than a million tablecloths! What if she would never see her daughter again?
She remembered the time when she had fought with her parents about her choice of friends. Her parents did not approve of them because they were a rowdy lot. She knew they were right. But she would not admit it. She had wanted to belong to the ‘cool’ crowd, and not be a nerdy goody-two-shoes. How she wished she had obeyed them. But no, she had to be defiant and rebellious.
Eventually, she had learnt her lesson the hard way, which had knocked some sense into her idiotic head.
Her parents had been very kind and loving throughout her rebellious teens. But had she returned these feelings of love and thoughtfulness? She hadn’t. Why? Because she was a selfish, thoughtless creature.
She cringed. What if she never got a chance to tell her parents how much she loved them, that she was eternally grateful to them for their love, kindness and advice, which she had loathed vehemently in the past, but which, she now realised with a pang, was her guiding force?
She remembered the time she had bullied the less popular kids at school. Why, oh, why did her mind have to remember all this now, at this moment when it could be her last? “Because you did wrong, and you have been writhing with guilt subconsciously for years,” a voice whispered in her head.
She wished she had not been such a bossy, domineering person. She had hurt many people in her life, and she vowed that if she ever got out of this ordeal alive, she would make it up to people and to God. Oh, how she would make it up! For yes, she had been guilty of neglecting God, too.
She was filled with a sense of shame and disgust. “Help me God,” she prayed silently.
For a while, her mind stopped replaying past episodes, and she wondered if she had imagined hearing someone enter the room. Maybe she had. After all, she was over-worked. And she was paranoid by nature, too. Maybe it was because she had not yet adjusted to the drastic change in her life. She had moved to Chicago about a week ago from Florida, and it was kind of hard for her to adapt to the changes.
That was it. Her mental exertion was causing this entire problem. Relieved, she stooped down to pick up some papers which had fluttered to the floor, when she heard it again — the rustling noise. That sound again!
Terrified, she leapt out of her chair, her eyes dilated with fear. She frantically looked around. But there was no one. And then, the rustle.
She looked around intently, and then burst into hysterical laughter. The curtains in front of the window were flapping noisily because some co-worker had forgotten to shut it after he had finished smoking. The ‘intruder’ had been the wind. For a moment, she stood there, angry with herself for being so stupid and scared. Then a smile played across her face. “Thank you, God for making me so scared,” she whispered. “If it hadn’t been for the wind and the scare it gave me, I might never have come to my senses. I might never have realised my past mistakes. I would never have known how precious my loved ones are to me.
The wind had whooshed a rush of wisdom into her. She chuckled to herself.
She quickly finished her work and left for home.
She picked up her sleepy daughter from her neighbour who baby-sat for her, and hugged and kissed her and told her how much she loved her. Her daughter looked overjoyed.
Once home, she decided she would call her parents and have a long chat with them. She would also try to get the phone numbers of people she had hurt in the past and ask them for their forgiveness, and most importantly, thank God properly for all the blessings and for keeping her safe.
And then, words of Congreve that she had read recently came to her mind:
Delay not till tomorrow to be wise, Tomorrow’s Sun to thee may never rise.
No, she would change her attitude. What if this was her last hour? She might die any time. She was determined to set to work to right the wrongs of her life.
She called up her parents and had a long, hearty chat with them. Their happiness made the whole ordeal worth it! She thought that even if she was unable to obtain the phone numbers of people she had hurt, she would make up for it by being kind, polite and helpful to people from now. She prayed and thanked God profusely, and now she was filled with happiness, contentment, joy and elation.
Just before she drifted off to sleep, she remembered what the sobriquet for Chicago was — the Windy City!
Huda Iqbal Qazi, 20, is a doctoral student in Alternative Medicine in the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia
At an airport, I overheard a father & his daughter in their last moments together. They had announced her plane's departure & standing near the door she said, "Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough too, Daddy." They kissed good-bye & she left. He walked over towards the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted & needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?" "Yes, I have," I replied. Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love & appreciation for all my Dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face to face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man was experiencing.
"Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?" I asked. "I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, her next trip back will be for my funeral," he said. "When you were saying good-bye I heard you say, 'I wish you enough, may I ask what that means?" He began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone." He paused for a moment and looking up as if trying to remember it in detail, he smiled even more. "When we said, 'I wish you enough,' w e were wanting the other person to have a life filled with enough good things to sustain them" He continued & then, turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory: I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright. I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you e nough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough "Hellos" to get you through the final "Good-bye" He then began to sob & walked away. My friends and loved ones, I wish you enough. They say, "It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire lifetime to forget them"
What would you do? You make the choice! Don't look for a punch line; There isn't one! Read it anyway. My question to all of you is:
Would you have made the same choice?
At a fund raising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:
"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. "I believe,that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."
Then he told thefollowing story:
Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked," Do you think they'll let me play?"
Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others inspite of his handicaps.
Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."
Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat. At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came an d Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and it a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game. Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to second base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest on their team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the way Shay" Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! Shay, run to third"
As Shay rounded third, the boys from b oth teams and those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay ran to home,stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.
That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world.
Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
A little footnote..:
We all can make a difference. We all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize the "natural order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice. we pass up that opportunity to brighten the day of those with us the least able, and leave the world a little bit colder in the process?
Sanjay, a rich guy, loved fast cars and he did have a few in his possession. He loved to speed and could not be bothered about breaking speed limits. Many a times he was caught by the cops and speed radars, fined, but still he never bothered until...... One day as he was driving at a very high speed as usual, he saw a cop following him. The cop overtook him finally and asked him to stop and checked his license. He then took out his pad and started Writing, and then handed over the sheet of paper to Sanjay.
How much was this one going to cost?!!!
Wait a minute.What was this? Some kind of joke? Certainly not a ticket.
Sanjay began to read:
"Dear Sanjay, Once upon a time I had a lovely daughter. She was six when killed by a car. You guessed it - a speeding driver's car. A fine and three months in jail, and the man was free. Free to hug his three daughters. I only had one, and I'm going to have to wait until Heaven, before I can ever hug her again. A thousand times I've tried to forgive that man. A thousand times I thought I had. Maybe I did, but I need to do it again. Even now. Pray for me.. And be careful, Sanjay, my son is all I have left."
Sanjay turned around in time to see the cop's car pull away and head down the road. He watched until it disappeared. A full 15 minutes later, he too, pulled away and drove slowly home, praying for forgiveness and hugging a surprised wife and kids when he arrived.
There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence.
Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence....
Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it, and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence.
The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say, "I'm sorry," the wound is still there."